Sunday, December 7, 2008

For Paola

There's no piece of carbon paper between us
Our differences bind us
Together, we are stronger
With the other

Like fingers interlocked
Legs twined together, in bed
We breathe in unison
Our hearts almost synch

Together, different paths
We share the same goals
And find each other at the end
Soulmates, lovers, friends

Friday, December 5, 2008

Coffee Talk (Short Fiction)

I wrote this before I read the piece (which I can't find) about editors fleeing in terror from coffee shop pieces, so forgive me if it's been done.

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She was always friendly when no one else was around to see it. I told Chris about it once and he didn’t believe me.

“You’re making it up,” he’d said. “I swear she burns my milk on purpose.”

She never burnt my milk. Not once, and if the shot ran too long or too fast she’d dump it out and start over until it was perfect.

I’d try to start a conversation and ask her how things were, like I knew about her life. I knew nothing except that she made great espresso, and she liked art. The walls of her shop were adorned with a constant rotation of local artists’ work.

My favorite piece was in the impressionist style, a woman sitting on the bench at the market, her foot kicked in the air somewhat; the sandal on her foot hanging on by the toes. She ate ice cream out of a cup, while her little daughter sat next to her; a vague, faceless, not completely formed being.

“That’s not her daughter,” she said when I told her how much I liked the piece, “The proportions are all wrong.”

“Couldn’t that be the point?” I asked, and she shrugged and held out her hand for the price of the drink. I didn’t want to hold the line up so I paid her.

On my way out the door she said, “It’s not her daughter, it’s a doll,” loud enough so that the whole café could hear.

I asked Chris, when I saw him again. “I don’t go there anymore. I got tired of her messing my drink up.”

“Where do you go now?”

“The one down the street with the drive-through.” Chris said. “I’m pretty sure she burned my milk on purpose.” He added.

“Have you seen the painting?” I asked.

He shrugged. “Art is silly, especially that half baked, amateur, café trash. Anyone can do that. A woman’s body, now that’s art.”

He nudged me with his elbow and winked. Chris was a coworker, not a buddy, and my politeness was out of convenience. He was the only other guy in my age bracket where I worked, so we’d formed a loose acquaintance based on common experience.

“Care to elaborate?” I asked, since the ball was rolling, why not.

“She always wears though Capri pants, right? The ones that fit,” he made a curving shape in the air with his hand. “I noticed that if I stood on the end, where they keep all the free newspapers, and flip through one, I could get a nice wake up shot to go with my espresso. It’s how she dumps the wasted shots out, all bent over.” He smiled like a schoolboy. “I bet she does it on purpose even.”

“I couldn’t tell.” I never really looked at her like that. I finished my lunch and went back to my desk to work.

The next day, I stopped by the café for my morning cup. There was no line and no other customers, just me and her.

“Hey there,” she said, beaming. I smiled back and went to look at the painting again. Maybe she was right and I just couldn’t see it. It was gone though.

“Someone bought it yesterday.”

She steamed my milk and I walked around and looked at the other pieces while I waited. Nothing caught my eye. “I wish it would have been me,” I said, the screeching woosh of steaming milk drowned my voice out.

“Here ya be, sir” she said, when the drink was finished. I paid her and wished her a good day. On my way out I stopped and glanced at the free media rack. It was populated with local classifieds, alternative papers and a little post-it board filled with the numbers of locals offering goods and services.

I looked above the board and remembered, right as I saw it, the camera aimed at the end of the counter, in the line of sight of the cash register and the espresso machine. They’d installed it after their third robbery in a year.

“Any luck with that?” I asked, pointing at the camera with my cup.

“Kind of… I mean it hasn’t helped us catch the burglar if that’s what you mean,” she said.

I nodded, and took a sip from my latte, glad that she never burnt my milk.

Thursday, December 4, 2008

Untitled (Poem)

Joe Average holds his piece of the pie tighter
And says that love for his fellow man
Extends as far as his arms can swing
In the land of the free, altruism and social responsibility
Can be had on the cheap
In the land of the free, you get what you pay for
Even if it means overpaying
For something that shouldn’t be for sale
Even if it means settling
For Average

Saturday, November 29, 2008

100 Words a Day or Go!

When in doubt the safest bet is lowering the bar although this can backfire if limbo is your game. I shouldn't have to tell you to do the opposite. Not you, because you know better than I. But just in case, I'll put it out there and let you decide what to do with it. After all choices are for the choosing and choosing not to decide is a choice of its own. Whatever it is, it's yours to make and yours to live with.

My current attempt at cobbling prose together and hammering it into paragraphs with or without some continuity is being assembled under the mantle: 100 Words a Day or Go! An obvious mistake on my part (should be 1000 tbh) but I liked it so much we're keeping it. It's only a working title anyway, I'm not married to it.

What's my idea? Well, probably not a good one... I read way too much Dostoevsky or some would say not enough. Fyodor, constructs his worlds slowly and carefully with people that all of us know on some level. If we don't know them when the book starts, by the end we do, which makes the reading all that more enjoyable for me. I'm spending more time on the construction part this time, using an outline as the underlying foundation for my universe.

My wife, who seems to take this stuff harder than I do, got really upset with me when I told her I was yanking the plug on everything and starting from scratch... again. What's a wannabe writer to do though? I've never been a fan of squeezing blood from a stone that's for sure. Hard work is one thing. I'll roll my sleeves up and get it done but I'm big into outcomes. Sure things are the ticket.

So how do you get over that feeling of trying to make an idea that seemed like such a sure thing, work? Is it best to go back to the drawing board or should one attempt the mental hurdles hoping that there's an actual finish line in site at the end of the excruciating, mind numbing, tedious stabs at fashioning words into entertaining, thought provoking, prose?

I hope you're not looking at me to answer that. How about a quote from Richard Bach though: A professional writer is an amateur who didn't quit.

That is something I can buy into. Starting at 1000 words a day will be the first step for me.

Monday, November 10, 2008

*Deep Sigh*

I got nothing. Not in the "I'm a dried up former fountain of creativity" kind-of-way but in the "It's really hard to write something that I would want to read" kind-of-way, which is probably the most important thing.

Established writers say "Finish the darn thing and get better at finishing!" but how do you finish something that you can't even get excited about working on? I'm not on a self-pity trip, no not that at all. What I'm on about is the desire to create something that I can set next to the work of my literary heroes and not feel ashamed of.

Lofty goals? You bet, but we all have our own definitions of success and I won't be redefining mine anytime soon. Back to work.

Stay tuned.

Tuesday, November 4, 2008

Winston Churchill Said:

"You can always count on Americans to do the right thing - after they've tried everything else."

Kudos to McCain for not dragging it out and giving an eloquent concession speech. Congrats to President Obama. I hope that he will take the lead in mending the partisan rifts that plague our nation.

It would be nice to see the same level of voter involvement in the future because this thing only works when your voice is a part of it.

Monday, November 3, 2008

Election Day

I wanted to say something meaningful like: "Tomorrow, our long national nightmare comes to an end." but it's probably been done by now. Let's keep that in mind. Tomorrow, after two years of downright, abject, stupidity this thing will finally start winding down. FINALLY!

You know what I'm tired of hearing? Campaign ads. It's the rampant, unrepentant, fear mongering and I won't miss it. Look, I've been around. I've met people in many countries and states, I went to school on both coasts, did some time in the Navy, and my job today still involves a healthy amount of travel so I rub elbows with folks from all over regularly.

There was a time back when I was a young man I'd be indignant that someone could have a different political view than mine. Most conversations about the subject would break down into hostile shouting matches without any sort of resolution, so I resolved to never talk politics with those that were close to me.

I'd like to say that lasted, but it didn't. Instead I became older and encrusted with a thick layer of cynicism at the whole process, and through my travels and exposure to different people I've come to find and understand that people have different reasons and circumstances for believing what they do.

That's fine by me. I'll even go one better and say that most people don't even know what they believe because their beliefs are never tested. Hey, you can say what you want about this, that or the other but the only thing that matters and the only thing that people see is how you ACT. How you act is what you believe, not some platitude or soundbite that you heard some guy drop on the TV. You can echo that all day but at some point you're going to have to get off your butt and stand behind it. Will you?

Is it hard to imagine that someone may have the best interests of the country in mind, even though their beliefs don't fall into step with yours? Think about what it means to accuse someone of being "Unpatriotic" because their ideas are not the same as yours and then think about how closed minded and ignorant it is to rebut someone's argument by calling them a name or (my favorite internet trick) attacking their character because you can't defend your point of view.

People, we come in all shapes, sizes, colors and genders and we all (generally) have one thing in common: We want what's best for ourselves and our country. There is more than one way to go about doing that and sometimes it may not necessarily be the way that you believe in, but you can not do anything at all if you don't participate in the process.

I would never attempt to sway an opinion one way or another, unless challenged to, I'm always up for that. However, there is one thing that I will not bend on, no matter what and that is voting. If you haven't already, you must vote tomorrow. Give voice to those opinions of yours that you think can help shape this nation of ours into the place that you want it to be. You will have my respect no matter what your beliefs.

Vote people!